I Was Groomed by the Internet.

This is the reality of a 12 year old Lina’s media consumption circa 2013.

Transcript:

“Florida Kilos” by Lana del Rey fades in

White lines, pretty baby, tattoos
Don't know what they mean, they're special, just for you
White lines, baking powder on the stove
Cooking up a dream, turning diamonds into snow

I feel you- (opening monologue to “Lolita” cuts in while “Florida Kilos” continues to play in the background, muffled)

“She was Lo, plain Lo, in the morning, standing four feet ten in one sock. She was Lola in slacks, she was Dolly at school. She was Dolores on the dotted line. But in my arms she was always - Lolita. Light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin. My soul. Lolita.”

Lina: I was only 12.

(A car passes by followed by children laughing and playing layered with the sound of a creaky swing set.)

Lina: (voice pitched up, while speaking the sound of tv static rises until it becomes overwhelming and hard to hear what’s being said)

Do I have a crush on you? Or am I just lonely?

I act shy, but I will fuck the shit out of you.

We can fuck to the Weeknd.

I think the Weeknd makes everyone sexually frustrated!

Pierced nipples are hot as fuck.

@ God, please make my skin clearer, and my ass fatter.

Date someone who will text you dirty things while they’re eating dinner with their family.

I really need to get my pussy ate.

I just wanna cuddle naked with you and see who gives in first.

I just wanna sit on his lap and feel his dick.

Sun dress, no panties.

Short girls with thick thighs>>

We all know that one person we get sexually frustrated just by looking at.

Yes, I have a dirty mind and you are on it.

I just wanna kiss your neck and make me beg you to not stop touching you.

Have a slutty phase, it builds character!

Top 3 phases that’ll create sexual tension.

Top 3 types of girls.

Weight should be like virginity, once you lose it you can’t get it back.

Protect grown-looking underage girls 2k15.

(sound of a cassette tape being taken out)

Miranda from “Sex and the City”: Your relationship is my greatest fear realized. I totally understand your dilemma! And from my experience honey, if it seems too good to be true, he probably is.

(sound of a tv being shut off)

(sound of scrolling through tiktoks talking about “high value women”)

Lina: disappointed sigh, (types and deletes over and over. sucks teeth)

Fuck.

(erases message)